my own love story..

Im here, seating on a comfy chair,
staring at the clock and watches
as time goes by so slowly...
Im wondr'ing if i could turn back time
and sa things that must be said..
But I realized it won't happen..
It's impossible..
Its impossible to drove unto the past
and change things..
You know we're in real life..
We're not in a fairy tale..
that magic makes all possible..
In my life,
you're love is the magic..
It makes all possible..
But how will it happen if you don't love me?
Instead of feeling good,
I felt unloved, uncared and rejected..
You never learned to love me..
Even I lay on a bed of nails,
and kneel on a thousand needles,
you're still the same..
You're still the guy who crushed my heart,
made my eyes well up tears,
and made me want to die..

After all these things,
I am afraid to love again..
I am afraid to be hurt.
But when I met a guy that swears to love me,
I moved on..
He cared, he loved.
But it's jus for an instant..
He leaves me..
Now that I'm empty again..

Should I love you again?
Or move on and find again another?